New Blog Photos Guys! by Raven Vasquez Photography

My friend Raven took some new photos for the blog and I'm obsessed.

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I've been obsessed with her for a while, she is a complete entrepreneurial inspiration and I have the feeling you'll be AWWWWW-ing uncontrollably if you check out her Instagram feed.

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But I'm most of all majorly obsessed with the fact that these are new "head shots" - a FAR (far far far) cry from the head shot I needed for my old life which involved me wearing a super tight suit coat and trying to casually put my hand on my hip while having my head positioned by three different people (look down, now bring your eyes up to try that again without looking so 'bout propping your foot up on this fairly tall bench...there, that looks casual).

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Back to that blazer real quick. I definitely miss dressing like a boss for work (I mean, I could do that at home I guess) but I DO NOT miss this jacket. I bought the tiniest one they had and insisted on squeezing myself into it because "shrunken" blazers were all the rage. If you had asked me to throw a basketball while wearing this blazer, I would have just rolled over onto my back like a turtle. Pick up a child while wearing this blazer? The definite result would have been a giant rip up the back. Casually place my hand on my hip in this jacket? A super awkward wincing face and inner elbow abrasion.

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Also for this old head shot, I had to pick a hobby and hold up a physical representation of it for a pic. If you asked me now, that would be easy...I'd hold up a baby (or a diaper? or a muffin? my laptop?) But back then I remember thinking "ummm I played the piano in 7th grade?". So I ended up holding a yoga mat AND rock climbing shoes and sort of shrugging in the pic. OK, finished with the rant, onto the sharing of these NEW pics featuring a soft and flowy top representing MY FUTURE. (#drama).

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Thank you so much Raven. And YOU. If you haven't already awed yourself into a coma from scrolling her IG feed, please do so now.

You can (should) book a session with Raven here.

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Yoga Stretches for Babywearers

Guys, my 9 month old weighs 26 lbs. 

AND, he loves to be held. (Side note: I love holding him too). Lately, he has been crawling up into my arms a little more often (I blame this and pretty much everything else on new teeth). In order to have a hand or two free, I've been wearing him a lot. My back hurts. Really specifically, my right shoulder and neck hurt, like a can't turn my head kind of feeling.

A lot of you are probably in the same boat. Carrying a babe on one hip, hauling around a giant bag, hunching over while nursing, wearing your 9 year old in the Ergo to get her to sleep (hi I'm a huge exaggerator, nice to meet you  👋🏻). Basically, babies can equal back pain. 

Rather than waiting hours after waking for my back and neck muscles to loosen up, I looked around online and consulted a yoga buddy to put together a series of super simple stretches that give me back my head movement. Aside from the physical benefits, I'm dabbling in the whole mind-clearing side of yoga and meditation. I haven't experienced any life-changing, stress busting breakthroughs yet, but I'm hopeful.

In order for this to become something I actually do everyday, I knew a few things. It had to be really quick, like about 3-5 minutes. It had to be simple so I could remember how to do it without reading any instructions. AND it had to be something I could do anywhere (I usually do it in bed every morning).

Seated Side Bend


Seated Forward Bend (aka touch yo toes)

 "Is that really as far as you can reach?!" -Austin

"Is that really as far as you can reach?!" -Austin

 Demonstrating his flexiness

Demonstrating his flexiness

Seated Trunk Twist  




Child's Pose


I hold each pose for about 30 seconds (which seems like forever, working on that yoga mind). As you can see, I have about as much flexibility as a pretzel but hopefully this helps me obtain Austins level of bendiness (he can seriously probably do the splits). I'm wearing the big guy in the Ergo as I type this and am about to put him down to do a little stretchin'.


Figuring out Productivity as a Stay-at-home Mom

I've never liked the word productivity. 


It's sort of like "portion size", makes me cringe a little and immediately lose interest. If you also cringe when you hear productivity, I apologize in advance 'cause I'm about the say it like a million times. Whether I like the word or not, productivity is part of life both for both working and nonworking mamas.

The meaning of productivity has changed dramatically for me between when I was working and now. Productivity for working me: putting on pants, finishing a presentation, sitting in on calls, scheduling and attending meetings, leaving the office for lunch, sitting in traffic for 2 hours a day, oh yea, and making $$$. Productivity for stay-at-home me: A mystery. Started as keeping babies safe and fed, not completely trashing the house everyday, and maybe taking a shower and is currently morphing into writing blog posts at midnight. I haven't really figured it out yet.

I do know that newborn babies throw a total wrench in traditional views of productivity, obvs. They take a scheduled life and turn it upside down. This stage probably lasts a different amount of time for everyone. The first time for me it pretty much lasted the entire 12 weeks of maternity leave. Going back to work brought order and schedule back and by default, feelings of productivity. With my second baby, I decided that going back to work wasn't going to happen so the hard deadline ending the newborn stage never came. Where did that leave me? Incredibly happy and grateful to be home followed by feelings of "S&*t, I'm going to have to figure out how to feel organized and productive by myself this time."

I wanted to know what productivity means to other working-turned-SAHMs, so I asked a few.

Meet Laura (a different Laura, I swear).


Amazing mom to almost 2 year old, Bodhi, and brand-spanking-newborn, Wilder. Corporate insurance broker: whip smart, put together AF, great hair. Spent her days in pencil skirts and seriously high heels. She knew during her pregnancy with Bodhi that she was going to stay home after his arrival. Laura and her boys travel for her husband's job, so she knows very few people in her current city and is about to move to a new one (yes, with a newborn and a toddler 😱).  

I can't really imagine Laura being unproductive, but I asked her about it anyway. Her response to my email was polished enough to be an article in some sort of boss mom magazine. To her new life at home with babes, productivity means leaving the house most days. Without those structured escapes she fears her and her toddler will get on each others nerves (#truth). She also tries to keep a schedule most days but isn't super strict about it (I'm gonna call her a soft scheduler), possibly a nod to her former life planning for deadlines months in advance. Laura takes advantage of conveniences like online grocery shopping and meal delivery services (like plated) Because next to staying at home all day, one of the things that makes her feel most unproductive is having an empty fridge.

Laura most missed the adult convos she used to have at the office. I imagine those convos were pretty badass and involved words such as integrative, expedite, and perhaps synergy? She also misses the clothes & shoes required by the corporate life. I totally relate to this. My office was much more casual than Laura's, but not so casual where I could show up in the PJ lookalikes I currently wear to work. 

Meet Anne.


Hilarious, so so kind, cute as hell, and laid back, being a mom appears second nature to her. She went back to work after her first babe, David, and decided to call it quits when she was expecting her second little nug, Lucy. Anne is the first friend you text when you get pooped on by your child. Like Laura, she is raising her babes far from extended family while her husband finishes up his residency. 

Productivity to Anne as it relates to caring for babes means keeping an at least slightly organized house and tackling stuff that needs to get done, like meals and laundry. She's working on not beating herself up and letting messes happen (I feel you). She focuses on getting herself and the kids ready every morning (unlike me and my typically naked kids 🙈) with the goal of getting out and about during the day (park, zoo, errands). The part she most missed about working is seeing her work friends everyday. Luckily she still has them around to text with because work friends can seriously turn into the best friends sometimes.

Something Anne told me I'm her email totally struck a chord, and that was she feels less productive when her 2 year old watches too much TV. I 100% agree. It also makes me feel unproductive and also just like a bad parent when Ruthie watches too much Clifford (January and February right after Bobby was born = WAY more TV that id like to admit🙈. It was Thomas back then, I miss Thomas).

Things I've been doing in order to feel like I'm not just floating around between diaper changes all day:

1. Get up before babies - I've been failing at this most days because Bobby wakes up at 3 am lately, but days I get up early I have a slightly more laid-back attitude all day. Might be the extra coffee.

2. Listen to a podcast - I usually pick trending nutrition related stuff, or inspiring but short shows like How I Built This.

3. Turn Netflix off - Especially difficult lately because I've started watching Gilmore Girls again (it makes me feel fallish?!).

4. Limit social media - Somebody please help me with this.

5. Cut the ties between productivity and a clean house - I read somewhere that cleaning a house with a toddler is like brushing your teeth while eating oreo's. For someone who isn't very cleaning motivated to begin with, basing productivity on keeping the kitchen clean is a terrible idea.

What do you guys do to feel productive at work or at home?


Baby Raisin' Essentials: Gear That Will Get Used Everyday

I am probably the last person you want to see a baby gear list from. 


I've mentioned before that I tend to be a little unorganized. I'm also not really a "gear" person meaning I don't usually have the latest and greatest of things. I just got an iPhone 6. I tend to show up to things like camping trips grossly under prepared. I took my laptop to the apple store for repair and they referred to it as a "vintage machine". But when it comes to baby stuff, I do my research. Planning for Ruthie's arrival 2 years ago in a giddily excited haze, I pieced together a pretty cohesive registry.

This is a list of the things that I have used every. single. day. for the last 2.5 years. I haven't gotten bored with them, frustrated with them, annoyed to the point of throwing them out the upstairs window (unlike my husband and his short lived romp with an electric toothbrush), and they also haven't worn out on me despite everyday use through two babies.

These are the items I didn't know that I would fall in love with, therefore could not have recommended until recently. Some of the items I'm still using with 2 year old Ruthie and 8 month old Bobby simultaneously. THESE ARE GOOD THINGS.  

1. Ergo Classic. My number one, all time fave, will-recommend-it-until-I-die piece of equipment is the Ergo. This piece of gear is built. to. last. I use it every day, multiple times a day around the house. I nurse in it, feed myself, literally run with Ruthie, cook and photograph food, rock babes to sleep, take them to the store. One of Ruthie's first words was Ergo. Anytime I leave the house, it's with me. It was originally grey but is now has a sort of beige haze of spit up and food stains. Somehow a crayon melted inside of it. It isn't pretty anymore but structurally, it is still as perfect as the day I bought it.


I got really into different carriers after having Ruthie and tried out a ton of varieties (ring sling, stretch wrap, mei tai, Tula soft structured carrier, and Ergo). I loved the ring sling and stretchy wraps with Ruthie, but Bobby has been too heavy for both since he was about 3 months old. A few things I look for in a carrier: a wide base that enables legs to be "frogged", a flap to help hold head in place after baby inevitably passes out, and cushiony straps. 




Jk I have a few more faves. 

2. Phil and Ted Lobster Claw Seat. This little diddy has been through some gross stuff. It gets a thick coating of food almost everyday and you KNOW I'm not wiping that bad boy down after each meal. The removable canvas seat usually gets hit with the hose and hung to dry but I have also put it in the washing machine (not recommended by manufacturer) and it is still as sturdy as day one. The metal frame is pretty bulky so I wouldn't exactly call this portable, but it is perfect as an everyday seat. Clamps right to the counter or sturdy tabletop allowing you to sweep right underneath after feeding babe (or you know, 5 hours later 🤷‍♀️). 


3. Charlie Banana cloth diapers + wipes. One thing I researched a ton, like spent WAY too much time on, was cloth diapers. I drove to an adorable little cloth diaper store to take a CLASS in cloth diapers. The women of yore are rolling their eyes so hard at me. There are so many different varieties of diapers and I found it super confusing. There is a lingo and a community and a million hashtags and it was a lot of info. I ended up investing my diaper money 70% into Charlie banana and 30% into another brand and the Charlie bananas are the ones I always reach for first. It's not only the cute prints, the same exact diapers somehow fit really well from birth all the way to a 2 years old. I use the same diapers now with Bobby that I did with Ruthie (again, not being super careful and following all the manufacturers directions), and most of them still look pretty new. We use cloth when we're home and disposables overnight and when we're out and about.  

I also love the wipes. They are super soft, I just run a few under water before going in for a dipe change and then toss them into a wetbag. Even if you don't cloth dipe, these are very handy to have around! Ruthie has a special pack just for bathing Hank, her inflatable hippo.


4. Jessica Simpson nursing bras. NURSING BRAS ARE TERRIBLE. I've been wearing one since 2015 (even when I didn't have to wear one 🤔) and can tell you so many of them are just not what I was looking for. Whyyyy are they so flimsy? At a time when you most need NON flimsy? IDGI. I found some solace in j.simps. She makes nursing bras with convertible straps that can be worn under racerback tanks. This style offers sturdy support without those weird, perfectly circular removable cups. Some of the reviews claim that the cups are too stiff and don't fold down easily enough for nursing. The cups are firmer than normal nursing bras, but I find that to be a good thing and don't have any problems with it. Oh and all of her bras are under $50!


5. Halo Bassinest Swivel Sleeper. I've only had this one for about a year so only Bobby has tried it out, but this is the co-sleeper I had been searching for since Ruthie was born. I borrowed and tried out an Arm's Reach Co-sleeper and a snuggle nest (similar to dock a tot but less $$): the Arm's Reach was too low compared to the height of our bed, and the snuggle nest took up too much room. The Swivel Sleeper extends to the exact height of our bed or even swivels over the top of the mattress, so night time feeding is super easy. By the time Bobby was about 3 months old, he could simultaneously touch all sides, so he had to move out. But I still felt like we got great use out of it. They are a little pricey (and super sturdy, the base weighs a ton), but well worth it if you're looking to co-sleep but already have a bed full of toddlers and husbands. I found mine second hand through a Facebook mom's group for $100!


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What are your everyday baby faves? Leave your recs in the comments! 🙏🙏


5 Ways to Style Your Letter Board in the Kitchen

Letter boards are probably so pumped at all of the attention they are getting lately. My small town post office uses one to list prices of stamps. That poor guy is probably not even aware of the fun stuff his buddies have been up to. Nowadays, these felt boards with little stick-on letters are usually used to relay some hilarious one liner or a moving quote to center the perfect IG capture, but as the old post office proves, they can also be really functional. Don't have one yet? Head over to Instagram to enter the contest Amy and I are hosting!

Already have one? Here are a few of our favorite ways to style your board for the kitchen!

1. Start a grocery list. Sure there are apps for that, but there is something therapeutic about putting a little (a lot of) extra time into physically building the perfect shopping list. OR you could just make a list of super healthy + exotic foods to impress any guests walking through your kitchen.


2. Display your weekly/monthly grocery total or budget. This one might seem odd, but if you're watching your spending, it can be really helpful. Check out how Ashley, pediatric dietitian at Veggies and Virtue, styles her board to share with followers her grocery total along with what she buys every week.

3. Offer a friendly slash passive aggressive reminder to your husband to put the dishes away. 

4. List the menu for a dinner party. You went the extra mile to make a beautiful dinner, show guests what they're in for and make the meal extra special by displaying the menu proudly.


5. Bring some humor into your kitchen decor. Funny is probably not how you'd like to hear your decor described "ohhh wow Laura, your kitchen looks HILARIOUS". But if I were showcasing my comedic skills on a strategically placed letter board, that's a compliment I would take any day. Like this cute shot from Rae Dunn obsessed, home decor Instagramer Nikki:

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Half a Year as a SAHM

It has been 7 entire months since Bobby joined the world.


Time is seriously wacky after having kids. I can't really say anything that hasn't already been said, but how does it possibly go this fast? It feels like slow motion while it's happening, and then overnight these tiny newborn babies become little kids.

You know how you hear on the radio or read an article online about what age people agree is best age of their life? It's usually an age that is sort of surprising and specific like 36 or 53, but I can't imagine a time in life where I will I feel more myself than riiiiight now. Every single day is something I look forward to. I look forward to seeing Bobby grow and big belly laugh and kick his chubby feet. I look forward to watching Ruthie learn and hearing what quirky thing she has to say and seeing what she will find outside (she recently learned about shrimp and calls them SHRAMPS and looks for them everywhere).

But it is really difficult too. Being at home with these guys is 100 million things at once. It's hilarious and fun, so so so messy, lighthearted and singsongy, complicated and uncomfortable, repetitive, really testing, strange and foreign and incredibly familiar. I go from feeling like a super clever genius to omg will I ever do anything right again. I feel really lost some days and right at home others. I worry too much about what's "normal" which leads to interesting google searches (like, "2 year old kissed white moth...poison??" Side note, that's really the format I use to type things into google).

Morning time is the time when I feel the differences from my working life the most. I no longer alarm and shower and blow dry and straighten and tuck in and match and makeup and drive. It sometimes seems impossible to me that I used to leave the house before 7 everyday and I'm sort of impressed with my past self (and every other working mom out there).


Some days I feel the pressure to contribute and have a mild panic attack about money, but then I think calming thoughts like "well, I'll just sell my car". Despite those anxieties, I'm not ready to leave. I miss feeling the stability I felt before, but it feels so so so worth it. It's selfish to say that, because the college accounts have been put on hold and a whole lot of pressure has been put on Austin, at the same time I can't help hearing that cliche in my head "you won't get this time back". I can spend the rest of my life working to make up for the years off (right?! Looking for reassurance here). I couldn't even handle thinking about the financial instability of not returning to work after my first maternity leave with Ruthie, even though I so desperately wanted to be home with her. Something felt different after having Bobby, 401k and expense reports are totally important, but they no longer feel like benefits that I cannot live without.

I know staying at home with babes is not at all the goal for many parents. I had not even an inkling that it was my goal until I was right in the middle of it all. There are few things I feel confident enough to give advice on, but I have absolutely no regrets in this decision. If you are going through something similar and struggling with the decision, I hope my experience might help.


And if I do have to act on my calming thought of selling my car for $$, don't worry, I'll write a post on it.

I'm Not Going Back: Making the Decision to Stay Home with Babes

This would have been my first week back to work after a little over two months home with my second babe. Just like everyone says, the time absolutely flew by. But it felt all kinds of different from my first maternity leave 'Cause I'm not goin' back.

As many moms do, I had a rough time going back to work after my first, Ruthie, was born. A few days after bringing her home from the hospital, I started to feel the annoying weight of the 12 week maternity leave clock. After my 6 week postpartum checkup? Full-on anxiety over the weeks, days, minutes we had left together. I felt guilty doing the dishes because I should have spent that time with Ruthie. I wore her endlessly to try to make every second count. I slept with her right next to me so I wouldn't waste the hours overnight. I didn't like to put her in the car because I couldn't hold her while she was in her car seat (geezus, I might be insane). Suddenly time was up and I had to force myself away from her side and into my car...alone. I cried for days, made myself feel horribly guilty, and tried to ignore the nagging feeling that I was making the wrong choice (for me, I totally understand this isn't the experience of every mother or father). In the hours outside of those spent in the office, I was obsessed with time and never left Ruthie's side. 

 Heading back to work when Ruthie was about 3 months old (and only 10 lbs!!)

Heading back to work when Ruthie was about 3 months old (and only 10 lbs!!)

When I found out we had another on the way, the thought of heading back to a typical workweek with a two hour daily commute felt flat-out impossible. I was spending more time at work than at home, and I definitely wasn't passionate enough about my job to justify the time away. And with TWO babies?? My stomach tightened every time I thought about it. At the same time, the thought of not working absolutely terrifies me. Not only the financial aspect (although that is a HUGE part), but what if I fall behind the competition? What if I can't find a job when I decide I'm ready to (or finances decide that I need to) go back? What about the example I was setting for Ruthie by working AND momming?

 Life: Ruthie is a blur and Bobby is just chillin'.

Life: Ruthie is a blur and Bobby is just chillin'.

Two and a half months into this leave, I feel none of the insane pressure I put on myself before. I am 99% sure that is because I'm not hyper aware of the invisible hourglass reminding me how little time I have left to witness the teeny babe stage in all it's glory. I might find down the road that I don't love staying home as much as I thought I would, or that we can't afford it, or maybe Ruthie will say "dude, go back to work I see you way too much", but I'm so excited and wierdly proud to be giving myself the chance to find out.

Thanks to Austin for agreeing to try and make it work <3.


 Grateful to see Bobby grow all day, err day.

Grateful to see Bobby grow all day, err day.


Bride-to-Be Diaries: The 4 Sites I Shopped for My Wedding Gown

I started writing this post fresh from a fitting with a worried (but gracious) aunt who courageously agreed to alter my very non-maternity dress into a very maternity one. It turned out better than I could have hoped and I was beyond excited to wear it on October 8th. But before I even had an inkling that I would be super pregnant during my wedding, the thought of finding a dress through the traditional avenues seemed intimidating to me. Spending a day (days?) checking out boutiques with a one year old wasn't really something I saw myself doing (and as many of you know, I am pretty much stuck to Ruthie's side every second that I'm not working). Though I am new to wedding dress shopping (obviously), I fancy myself an expert shopper so I started searching for a gown the same way I shop for most everything else - online. 

Here is a roundup of the best websites for nontraditional (pregnant, time-crunched, budget-conscious...and in my case, perhaps a tad lazy) wedding dress shopping.

HUNDREDS of options, simple silhouettes, and designers I'm familiar with. Other perks: free shipping and free returns AND you can use your Amazon Prime account to get even faster free shipping. I actually found "the one" through ShopBop first, but ended up ordering through Neiman Marcus for the benefit of having it shipped to store for a fitting.
This Badgley Mischka Beauty - $695
"The One" - $640 - this Self Portrait gown is the one I fell in love with as soon as I saw it. It obviously looked a bit different on me, here is the gown in it's original state. 
This Long Sleeve Gown - $695
Another Self Portrait Stunner - $1020 (and omg this one - $615)

Rent The Runway
I've been a RTR fan for a while, I have the app on my phone and check it out frequently for new arrivals. I tried it out for the first time for our engagement photons (this dress and this top). I've heard rumor that they are expanding their collection to include bridal options, but for now they have a few evening gowns that work perfectly for a low-key bride:
This One by Nha Khanh Rent for $150
Simple and Elegant Badgley Mischka Rent for $115 (I rented this as a backup!)
Form Fitting Midi by Opening Ceremony PURCHASE for $77 (!)

ASOS has pretty much become my go-to shopping site (especially since I'm usually pregnant). They have a million options and carry petite, tall, curve, and maternity sizes. ASOS actually has a bridal line for both the bride and the party and you cannot beat the prices, most are under $200 with free shipping and returns.
This Maxi - $181
This Pretty Midi - $143
We all know I'm a fan of the high neckline - this one would be so pretty for a winter wedding. 
This dress's casual summer vibes - $429

 Shoes by Jeffrey Campbell via  Nordstrom

Shoes by Jeffrey Campbell via Nordstrom

Free People
As you probably expect from Free People, a lot of these dresses are on the boho side. This was advantageous for me and my belly. Some of my faves include...
This Backless Halter Style - $450
This High Neck Flowy Gown - $750
This Classic Silhouette with Scalloped Detail - $815

Part of me has a bit of FOMO from skipping the whole boutique try-on process, but maybe it was a fated decision based on the expanding waistline that I am so proud to sport. It could very well be true that many brides are choosing to search for a dress online and I'm not as clever as I think. Either way, I now have both a sister and a SIL searching for wedding gowns, so I could always try tagging along with them... 

{Ruthie's dress found at Old Navy}

All images by the lovely Charis Rowland Photography

72 Thoughts I had on my Wedding Day

The big day has come and gone. How that is possible...I do not know. Many thoughts were had on October 8th, some of them were even remembered. I've compiled them into this list. 

1. omg.
2. Ruthie, it's 5:30 AM...let's hang out for a little longer.
3. How is Austin still sleeping? 

4. Oh! Amanda's here! I'm going to go grind coffee beans until she wakes up.
5. Yessss she brought good coffee beans!!
6. Why is there so much dew all over everything? Should I blow-dry the tables?
7. Oh god, the tablecloths are sticking.
8. Maybe I should wait until the sun comes up to start setting tables. 
9. DAN quit jumping on the bar. 
10. THANK GOD Amanda's awake. 
11. Should I be doing something super important right now?
13. I'm positive the florist forgot to put together my arrangements.
14. Ruthie looks so cute in tiny sweatpants.
15. I feel fairly normal today.
17. I wish I had more time to just hang out with my bmaids today.
18. There are 15 crates of freshly baked rolls in the living room. 
19. Monkey bread AND cinnamon rolls, this truly is the best day. 
20. Is everyone noticing how long my (fake) eyelashes are?


21. I can't believe how many people came to help us set up!
22. Have I felt the baby move today?
24. So grateful for grandmas <3
26. Having a photographer here is awkward (should I be doing something super inspiring to photograph rn?)
27. I wish I could have a photographer here to document every day.
28. Damn Andrea is good at doing hair.
29. It's time to put the dress on already.
30. I should probably wait until 5 minutes before the ceremony to put Ruthie's dress on.

31. People are here already!? What time is it?!
32. Can't really bend my arms, holding Ruthie like a robot for the rest of the day is fine.
33. First look is going to feel so awkward (I just saw Austin like 30 minutes ago). 
34. First look is a magical thing and I want to do it again at least monthly.

35. There are so many people here.   
36. I don't think we're going to start at 4:30.
37. I'm OK with starting late. 
38. Is everyone going to notice we are starting late?
39. Hope Lou doesn't mind strumming a few extra Sister Marilyn chords. 
40. What if there isn't enough food? What if there isn't any food because the caterer forgot? 
41. Can I go outside and say hi to everyone?
42. Reading books in the kitchen with Ruthie like everything is normal and there aren't 20 shuttles worth of family and friends outside.

43. What if Ruthie gets bored during the ceremony? 
44. Oh man, God bless Amy. She is literally sprinting around outside right now. 
45. Can anyone see me through this window
46. *Someone waves to me through window and I immediately drop to floor*
47. That was a strange reaction.
48. Time to go!
49. Was I supposed to wear a veil?
50. When did I put gum in my mouth?
51. *Frantically throws gum with excessive force, it goes 2 feet and sticks to a chair*
52. I have the greatest friends.
53. Should I remind Dad right now of the time he wore a furry suit to Andrea's wedding that one of the cats had slept on the night before?
54. I bet Ruthie is overwhelmed by the amount of people at our house.
55. Really time to go.

56. It is absolutely amazing to have most everyone I love in one place right now. 
57. I wonder if I look as excited as I actually am right now.
58. Oh, Austin. 
59. And Brian! Hi Brian!
60. Ruthie is crying! Poor buddy, she is probably so overwhelmed. (Thank you Renee for saving the day!)
61. Aw're crying already!

62. Do we hold hands? One hand or both hands?
63. *Austin whispers to me "Do we have to read our vows? I already can't stop crying"*
64. UGH this is one of the absolute best and sweetest moments of my life. 
65. Ah which hand does it go on?! 
66. Just now noticing that I am standing in front of a whole buncha folks. 
67. Feeling some intense relief. 

68. I hope this olden time vehicle starts.
69. Ruthie would love this, we should have brought her for a ride with us!
70. I think I'm sitting on the actual gas tank, I'm glad Ruthie isn't on here with us. 
71. I'm starving. 
72. This is

Many more thoughts were had and lost as the evening became pretty much a blur. Some highlights included listening to the speeches (especially Mary's *crying-so-hard face*), eating some really good food, finally getting to eat the cake (that my mom made for anyone who did not know that!!), and best of all, hanging out with pretty much everyone I know and love. Thank you isn't enough to express my gratitude to all of those who were a part of the day. Let's do it again real soon.

Bride-to-Be Diaries: Coming up with a Playlist

Welcome to the first installment of the Bride-to-Be Diaries! A series of posts that I hope will provide informational bits for those planning a wedding - from me and other brides/brides-to-be. 

We are getting dangerously close to our wedding day and have a million things to do. There is one thing, however, that has been completed for months now: the playlist. Austin and I share a Spotify account and have quite a few playlists between the two of us. Sometimes, I put together a super cool playlist full of Pharell and Childish Gambino and call it Booty-Do, and sometimes Austin puts together a not-quite-as-cool playlist full of Kid Rock and Seether and titles it Booty-Don't. Another fun Spotify tidbit about Austin, when he finds a great new song, he can listen to it on repeat for days (currently: Beck "Wow"). Anyone remember when Kid Cudi came out with "Pursuit of Happiness"? Never thought I'd hear another song again.

I did a lot of the wedding planning myself. Austin didn't have a ton of strong feelings about florals, linens, flatware, or even food. He was pretty busy literally building our venue from the ground up, but one thing we made sure to collaborate on was the music for the ceremony, dinner, and reception. Music has been an important part of our relationship since college. Austin had a friend who was really proficient at finding new music, Austin was then excited to share the new music with me, and me with my friends (MEGAN - remember our obsession with MGMT "Electric Feel"?). Chances are music shapes most relationships to some degree, and it's a great opportunity to add personalization to the day. 

 Gettin' down at Meg's wedding. Photo by  Esenam Photography

Gettin' down at Meg's wedding. Photo by Esenam Photography

A good number of songs from our playlist remind us of those college days, an even greater number of songs remind me of him and make me all squishy and nostalgic. It may be the pregnancy hormones, but I cannot listen to "The Gambler" by Fun. without tearing up. To me, that's the number one rule when coming up with your wedding music - make it feel like you. Don't worry as much about packing the dance floor or making sure every attendee knows every song, make a list that represents you and your partner and your lives together so far. Listen to your playlist (on repeat, sobbing in the car on the way to work if you're like me) and if you find yourself skipping songs, get rid of 'em! 

My brother, Lou, will be playing the guitar during our ceremony (thanks, Lou!!). For the reception, we found a great band called The Woo Daddies who are kind enough to allow our playlist to share the stage throughout the night. We won't hog the speakers all night, check out our playlist and leave your song requests in the comments!

Styled Shoot

We are getting closer and closer to being able to book dates for all of those interested for the 2017 season. Also getting super close to our big day. Keep following along for lots of major updates in the coming months. Check out some photos from a styled shoot in May at Morton's Grove.

Event Styling by Nichole at Keen Events:
Decor and Props: (this is the cutest shop in the world and it just so happens to be in Waterloo, IL!)
Hair by Andrea at Sanctuary Salon and Spa:
Dresses by Ruby Francis: (her handmade clothing boutique is open on Cherokee)
Evans Tie by Lonesome Traveler: (they do super unique tie packages for groomsmen!!)